2.5 months..

My son,Hamza, is almost 3 months now mashAllah.This journey from being a wife to a mother has been beautiful so far. This had made me love my beloved mother more and more with each passing day. All the hardships she must have borne to raise us is now being felt by me while looking after my son. Since his birth till today, at his every milestone, I wonder what would have Ammi said, how would she have reacted to his growing up and how much she would have loved him. Maybe more than me since he was my son and she loved me the most. Everytime I take his picture or make him wear new clothes or he has God forbid some problem, I just wish and wish that I can share it with my mother. At times, I wish I open my whatsapp contact list and find her online and send her his pictures to which she would just reply with a smile saying "mashAllah".That emptiness of not sending the pictures or calling ammi at that very instant is very saddening at times. Saddening might be a small word to describe the feeling. It's rather the hollowness which one feels which no other relation can fulfil. A woman needs her mother the  most when she becomes a mother herself. A mother can replace all other relations which a woman feels are farthering away from her because of the changes she faces in her life. A mother can become a friend when the girl doesn't find her friends around, she can become a mentor and guide of how to raise the child and she can at times become that annoying mother too with all the unwanted advice:D
I miss my Ammi more all the time since I can't share this huge happiness with her where she is besides me , assuring me that I don't need any other relation to sail through this phase of life.